Did you know
The moment when you were done?
When the last one
Stuck the last knife in
And you cried
One last time
Then you got back up
Wounds still fresh
Forming scars
When you looked
Into the palace of your soul
Deeper than you had in years
And said
“Yes.
I can do this.
I will take this pain,
And I will learn”
And you learn
Not to fall, so hard
Again
How not to trust, so easily
Again
This heart has to heal
This body is a treasure,
That only the worthy deserve
And anything short of certainty,
Can stay outside the walls
Untainted by the stains of others
Never allowed inside
The right one earns their place
And finally you are certa
Beautiful girl
Whose eyes reflect the stars
... and all the cold space that separates them
You smile,
And those eyes sink to the floor
I've never held your hand
But I can feel your sadness
From across the room
As you walk away,
Leaving nothing but a scent behind
Sweet, warm perfume
A smell I could wake up to
After a long night of talking
Under the stars
I don't want to love you
Or even hold your hand
I've cried enough for one life,
And had enough of all of that
I just want to make you laugh
And then make you coffee,
In the morning
How I Will Remember You (someday...) by Arydaea, literature
Literature
How I Will Remember You (someday...)
I wish that I could talk to you, about so many things. The things I should have said, apologies for the things I shouldn’t have, and questions about the things that happened, that I will never fully understand.
And I know that that is no longer up to me, and I will learn to live with that. But if you found this, and you are reading this, you must be wondering something, still. So, I wanted to at least put some things to rest.
When I said I cared about you, I meant it, every time. I will never take that back… even if I live to regret the rest. That much was true and always will be.
And I will stand by what I said- you're never goi
As I lay with sickness
Hours creeping in
I feel the darkness crawling
Pouring down my skin
Quiet voices whisper
Words I do not know
A fading image passed my reach
Yet I cannot let go
Here inside this stillness
I wait for something more
There’s got to be a world outside
I need to find the door
My body aches, my head’s on fire
My eyes can barely see
I’m half asleep, I scream inside
There’s more I need to be
So tired I can hardly move
This is no way to live
When all the strength you had is gone
What is left to give?
I lay with this sickness
Shadows closing in
I cannot move, I cannot rest
There’s got to be an end
Did you know
The moment when you were done?
When the last one
Stuck the last knife in
And you cried
One last time
Then you got back up
Wounds still fresh
Forming scars
When you looked
Into the palace of your soul
Deeper than you had in years
And said
“Yes.
I can do this.
I will take this pain,
And I will learn”
And you learn
Not to fall, so hard
Again
How not to trust, so easily
Again
This heart has to heal
This body is a treasure,
That only the worthy deserve
And anything short of certainty,
Can stay outside the walls
Untainted by the stains of others
Never allowed inside
The right one earns their place
And finally you are certa
Beautiful girl
Whose eyes reflect the stars
... and all the cold space that separates them
You smile,
And those eyes sink to the floor
I've never held your hand
But I can feel your sadness
From across the room
As you walk away,
Leaving nothing but a scent behind
Sweet, warm perfume
A smell I could wake up to
After a long night of talking
Under the stars
I don't want to love you
Or even hold your hand
I've cried enough for one life,
And had enough of all of that
I just want to make you laugh
And then make you coffee,
In the morning
How I Will Remember You (someday...) by Arydaea, literature
Literature
How I Will Remember You (someday...)
I wish that I could talk to you, about so many things. The things I should have said, apologies for the things I shouldn’t have, and questions about the things that happened, that I will never fully understand.
And I know that that is no longer up to me, and I will learn to live with that. But if you found this, and you are reading this, you must be wondering something, still. So, I wanted to at least put some things to rest.
When I said I cared about you, I meant it, every time. I will never take that back… even if I live to regret the rest. That much was true and always will be.
And I will stand by what I said- you're never goi
As I lay with sickness
Hours creeping in
I feel the darkness crawling
Pouring down my skin
Quiet voices whisper
Words I do not know
A fading image passed my reach
Yet I cannot let go
Here inside this stillness
I wait for something more
There’s got to be a world outside
I need to find the door
My body aches, my head’s on fire
My eyes can barely see
I’m half asleep, I scream inside
There’s more I need to be
So tired I can hardly move
This is no way to live
When all the strength you had is gone
What is left to give?
I lay with this sickness
Shadows closing in
I cannot move, I cannot rest
There’s got to be an end
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I haven't put anything up here in so long! Oh, I've missed you guys! To try and make up for the extended absence, I've put up a DA first for me: A series of pics, instead of just one or two from a set. I've titled them "Someone Else's Train". I hope ...
Our movie, "Necro Zombies From Beyond Space" is finally done, and online for your viewing pleasure (or displeasure, depending). We've spent four years working on what turned out to be a group project. I had several roles in the movie, as well as being co-director. It's weird. It's different. It's wrong. And it's funny.
http://vimeo.com/88503863